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It has been a long time I have not blogged. There are just so many things that happened that I dont know where to start. Well, to summarise, it's all about school work and school life.
Firstly, I have to say that I have been singing with the choir every morning during assembly for 2 weeks and have the privilege to sit at the left side of the stage area called Choir corner. I cant deny that I honestly feel proud about this though sometimes I can hardly see anything on the screen from the extreme corner. However, I will have to practise my singing more because I sound unstable and shallow when I sing.

I have been caught up with project work recently. I think it is tough and I am clueless quite often. But at the same time i realise that I am gonna finish JC1 in 2 months'time, which is crazy. The memory of the orientation games is still veyr vivid and now you tell me to prepare for Alevel. Crazy...

All lecturers are running the race with one another because they go really fast. I am victimised by the system and shoved to the situation where I am compressed like hamberger. Too much pressure.

At the same time, I am learning to trust God and submit my worries to him. It is a difficult process. But every Christian must undergo. So please pray for me.

May God bless you and bless me...

I spent almost 12 hours in the heritage room for choir practice today. I think it's a miracle that I could concentrate on one specific thing for so long. Choir in secondary school to me was more like a fun CCA with games, songs and dancing. I think I really love SC choir.

I was a little stressed by the stark difference when entering JC choir and it has taken me quite a while to adjust to the stringent rules and unfamiliar friends some of whom can be unfriendly at times. But after all, I am part of the community now and I dont want to be troubled and sad. I have to learn to get along with what is given to me, either choir or other things too, like PW mates, classmates, clustermates and my friends. Otherwise, I would just keep sinking deeper into depression and die with it. God keeps me on the right track and reminds me to do the right things. It is really important because fulfilling the responsibility is a hard thing to do and because there is so much temptation around. Easily, we get hooked up like fish.

JC life is not so simple as secondary school anymore. I think it's time for me to grow more mature. One thing I know for sure is that God is with me.

I am grateful for my last week's Physics SPA. Here I am, safe and sound with neither bruises, cuts, sweat nor stress over it. I was quite amazed that I actually completed the practical, which has never happened before, even in O level since I am often too cautious about details being taken in experiments to finish it within the time limit. Thanks be to God. I think He really listens and bless me.

I have been troubled recently by exams, friends, choir and project work. I prayed a lot yesterday for some inner peace and security to keep me on track. I realised that it is so easy to drift away from Him and get carried away by our busy life, just like pastor See said that our problems become too magnified and colossal that He becomes too small and insignificant and we are simply too overwhelmed by the present obstacles to see the Lord's work and intention in our lives. I have been ignorant and indifferent to Him and if He is not a patient God who is always waiting for me to come back, He could have just abandoned this unfaithful girl and things could have gone so wrong. He knows I am weak, lonely and unstable...He knows all my weaknesses and has sent Anna, Dzung, Uncle David, Uncle Kee Hong, Joey, Ying xian, Long... to be my friends and my source of consolation. Anyway I am going to receive a card from Ying xian, the naughty kiddo haha ( ying xian, if you read this, pls dont change your mind to send me the card) with a funny stamp with orange-striped fish.

I started to get back my term exam papers today. But I'm not revealing the results today. Wait until I get everything first.

After term exams

I am so grateful that I have completed my physics SPA, safe and sound. I remember praying so hard before the practical to have peace because I have been troubled by quite a number of things like friends, choir, project work and whatsoever. I truly and desperately need some inner peace and security. I was rather amazed that I actually finished the practical in time. This had never happened before since I am often too cautious about details taken in experiments to finish it within the time limit. Thanks be to God. I think He really listened to me though I have not really felt His presence very regularly.
My mind has been meditating on whether or not I should run for choir committees. It can be said to be a "L-sized' decision about my commitment in choir. Perhaps I should take a further step...
The nomination form is due this Saturday...