Last day of school but not last day of work. My energy is running out.
Exhausted.
Drained.
Worn out.
Things are burdening, chaotic and messy.
I am coming back to rest in Him. Amen.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Sunday, October 14, 2007
After Promos
I have finished my promos and contemplated the past two weeks. It is a long break, isn't it? But how come it passed by so fast. Time is really evil.
My uncle and aunt have stayed in Singapore for quite a while for there was something wrong with the baby and the local doctor did not know how to deal with it. She gave birth 2 days ago. Though it was a premature birth, the baby boy was healthy, like a balloon, expanding after being compressed the his mother's womb for the past 8 months.
We have not seen each other for 5 years and honestly meeting my uncle again brought me some butterflies in the stomach because I am not close to him. There seemed to be a barrier between us that made me feel uncomfortable, with him and with his wife whom I met for the first time. A successful well-off CEO, with a beautiful wife- that's my uncle whose view and aim are linked with the effectiveness of work. Money to him is the measurement of our efficiency. Good work means much money. Not so good... uhm, you know what to expect.
Maybe that's the blurry reflection of the real world that we are going to face later- cold-blooded and competitive. If so, it is scary, isn't it? More often than not, I constantly find myself struggling to cope with school work, CCA and normail daily things that need to be taken care of. Even things that are seemingly insignificant also cost me tonnes of sweat and effort to complete. But only in the midst of all odds where I feel the most inadequate do I realise that I am really desperate for God. Though the world is so unloving, God is love. When I think of my future, what I am going to be, what and where my job is, I think I am still unsure. Dear lord, I pray for your wisdom to direct me so that when the time is right, I will make the right decision. I am ready to be used by You.
My uncle and aunt have stayed in Singapore for quite a while for there was something wrong with the baby and the local doctor did not know how to deal with it. She gave birth 2 days ago. Though it was a premature birth, the baby boy was healthy, like a balloon, expanding after being compressed the his mother's womb for the past 8 months.
We have not seen each other for 5 years and honestly meeting my uncle again brought me some butterflies in the stomach because I am not close to him. There seemed to be a barrier between us that made me feel uncomfortable, with him and with his wife whom I met for the first time. A successful well-off CEO, with a beautiful wife- that's my uncle whose view and aim are linked with the effectiveness of work. Money to him is the measurement of our efficiency. Good work means much money. Not so good... uhm, you know what to expect.
Maybe that's the blurry reflection of the real world that we are going to face later- cold-blooded and competitive. If so, it is scary, isn't it? More often than not, I constantly find myself struggling to cope with school work, CCA and normail daily things that need to be taken care of. Even things that are seemingly insignificant also cost me tonnes of sweat and effort to complete. But only in the midst of all odds where I feel the most inadequate do I realise that I am really desperate for God. Though the world is so unloving, God is love. When I think of my future, what I am going to be, what and where my job is, I think I am still unsure. Dear lord, I pray for your wisdom to direct me so that when the time is right, I will make the right decision. I am ready to be used by You.
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