It is me again after quite a while, not because I abandoned this blog but because I could not pen down my entangled thoughts. In fact I have been visiting it almost everyday just for a glimpse of my past. I really have difficulty in expressing my emotions. It is like know but not totally know the precise exact words to describe them. Perhaps they are discouragement, slight frustration because of my inadequacy and doubt.

My mum has been regularly visiting temples to pray for me and she told me that every time I called her in the hope that what she did would somehow comfort and assure me. I am disturbed because salvation has not shed its light upon my family and I love them. When should I tell them about my faith? I am besieged by fear and worry. Why is trusting God so difficult? Perhaps a science-oriented person like me should cease challenging Him to provide evidence of His power. The art of making Him Lord is to give up our 'so-called' rights to Him, to give up the rights to claim things and request Him. I am seeking the Lord...