Because He Lives

Maundy Thursday 2012

Thank you Lord for availing yourself to the worst form of death, even though you had all the authority and Power to resist it, just to show us 'the full extent of love'. This holy gift, I don't deserve but I pray that you grant me the spirit of humility to receive and accept it with repentance and ultimately joy, for I have not understood the full measure of the joy of being born anew in You.

Thought for Sunday night

Woke up at 9 when I was supposed to be in Oasis at 9.15. The whole process of rushing for the worship practice caused me to feel uncomfortable and a little unsettled. I just felt an urge to stop my racing heart that had not calmed down even when the service commenced. We sang the song, Into Thy presence we come, and I could not help feeling this sense of injustice that I had not been doing the right thing to God and entered too hastily into His Presence. Why does God have to wait for me when He does not even need my service?
Perhaps this chance to serve needs to be handled with care, not to turn it into a stumbling block that hinders us from experiencing Him.

Something special for my chinese new year

I am so thankful today for the scrumptious meal and the fellowship we had. It has been a long time since I last enjoyed a gathering without feeling uninterested. I just felt so peaceful inside, of course with a bit of my usual soberness and not a lot of words. Perhaps God was being gracious to me to let me be part of the organisers of this meal so that I could feel part of it and to see His providence, from our food list, our action plans, our anxiety that the food would not be enough to how everything panned out so smoothly. Thank you God.

We watched "The Soul Surfer" movie after dinner. It has been a long time since I last watched a movie and also got so touched by it. There are a lot of 'it has been a long time' for me this Chinese New Year. Hee, it's great!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Psalm 23, The Lord is my Shepherd.

The last bit of the Cat (Rabbit) year

The last bit of the Rabbit Year or the Cat Year as our Vietnamese people normally call it, has been rather quiet. Perhaps this is the time when God allows me to have some time for myself to learn to be still and wait on Him.

I have so many things to thank Him for what happened for the past year. This is the year when He let me be able to see more things about my family, my friends and the circumstances at different points of time I was in. At the beginning of the year, my prayer was that God would grow and shape me as He allowed me to see things from His perspective. Well, I am not completely sure if my perspective is the same as His but definitely I have seen many things in different light, some of which can cause a bit of heartache. It is funny how we want to see things and when God reveals them to us, part of us doesn't want Him to continue. Perhaps, there is a reason why He has not let things come to our knowledge. Perhaps it is not yet time if we wonder why God doesn't speak...

I have not made any revelation for this year, neither have I planned to have a tangible achievement to be accomplished within the coming year. I just want to persevere with this faith and to allow Him to still be my shepherd to guide me in every decision.